The First Time I met U~

hahaha~ ini semua salah Hasnizah (my BFF)!~ blame her.. she is the 1 who persuaded me 2 do a blog on our journey, relationships, preparation n weddings guhuhu~ anyways. i also feel like it... theehhee~

As promised, the first time i met mr Nazrul Hilmi a.k.a. Jo a.k.a Naz a.k.a. Abg JoNaz a.k.a. my teddybear (secret name dat i gave him). The day was cool, the sky was blue, the weather was on our side.. he text me the nite before, 'sarah, i'm coming to UPM tomorrow at around 9. u do the itinerary ya.. i ikut je. I cume nak pusing2 UPM' huhuhu~ comel x? i x pernah ever bawak orfang tour satu UPM. (sebab selalunye kawan2 i sume budak UPM yang dah bosan ngan UPM.. haha). n i just LOVEE being a tour guide. i slalu berangan nak jd tour guide tp in vain. hahah~ last2 jd cikgu je. malam tu, i n lailatulailatulaila (my BFF jgk) brainstorm lah tempat2 we ol nak lawat esok... hehehe. baik punya planning.

so.. on the exact day which was 19 March 2011 which is exactly sharp2 1 month after we've known each other.. we met for the 1st time... jeng3..

hehehe... For the first time ever i felt freaking nervous to meet some1. i donno y. he gave me dis chilly feeling inside my guts. he parked his car somewhere (walaupun penuh gila parking tp, mcm disusun2 pulak, ada 1 je kosong. cantek plak tu tempatnye) i saw his car KCS9103 (yeke?) but i was so scared, i hid behind the walls. he text me he's there but i still hid myself. finally i collected my strength within and i just go for it. yah!! with a smile n fake confidence i went down the stairs (mujur sarah 'the fallen' baharudin didn't strike at that time.. hehe). he broke the ice. Said 'hye, Assalamualaikum' huh! thank God. i instantly smiled n answered. he is quite friendly. so we went in the car and i cud sense that he is also very nervous but try to hide it as well. hehehe~ so, we went on to having a tour around UPM.. ladang 16 (my1st time as well), ladang 10, TPU, ladang Kongsi, Bukit ekspo.. (belum ape2 lagi i dah kotorkan keta die.. hehehe) merah tayar sebab musim hujan. tapi nazrul x kisah... kan nazrul kann? hehe~ (ni yang tambah markah u ni.. ahaks!)

after dah bosan pusing UPM, we all pun pergi ke Alamanda n had lunch there. the sweetest thing dat i can quote him saying during our first lunch was:

me: so, how often do u come back here from kangar? (he works in kangar btw)

him: usually 2-3 bulan sekali.

me: OIC (jarang nyeee)

him: tapi in the near future lepas ni i rase i akan balik kerap sket kowtt~

* ^_~ awww! i loike. subtle but certain.

after dat, he accompanied me 4 a window shopping.. (added point sumore!!) hehe.. n i bought a clutch 4 my dinner. he stated his reasons n logics when i asked him about which 1 2 choose between the 2 (typical woman behaviour..huhu). i like it. he gave me some perspective..

after dat we went 2 Belon panas Putrajaya dat was happening there dat weekend. the balloons r gonna be up at 5 pm. and looking at the watch its only 3pm. i gave him an innocent look. will he be willing 2 wait? or suggesting something else? he said, nvrmind. we'll wait (impressive!) hehehe. i kept on asking my self, is dis becoz it's the 1st time we went out or becoz he is really nice? i was questioning myself. i do want 2 believe it~ hehe. so we walk n walk n meet people dat we noe, we walk n walk n shop n shop again n walk again. we met my fellow friend bad, my friend from kolej RISDA suraya and also his schoolmates from SIK (can u believe it? what a small world). we sat n finally it rain n the baloon never went up. it's already 5.50pm. i gave up n wanna go home. the moment we went into the car.. the rain stopped! n the balloons went up (i gave up!! hot air balloons n me were not meant 2 b..isk2..)

he send me off 2 college. we had our last chat while having our early dinner beside the lake. it was beautiful.. n calming. it resembles my feelings at that moment. the only word i can describe my feelings when i was with him was 'secure'. i felt safe.. n tranquil.. yup.. dats how he made me feel. we didn't say anything about marriage nor arrangements. we just want to get 2 noe each other. he's not pushy or anything like dat. so it was nice.

he went on 2 perform his prayers at the college's surau and went home after that.. so, that was our first date ever... i walked back 2 my room with mixed feelings and questions in my head .. which soon after dat will be answered n moves like Formula 1.. to my amazement. hehehe~

how does he feel? what do i feel? where is dis going? can we be together? should i give him n me a chance? r we meant 2 be? jadi... sume ini terjawab in few days after dat~ tunggu dan lihat!!~

*Next entry... Reallly?

~~The History~~

His-story.. My-story.. huhu. all of a sudden i just feel like creating a blog on our preparations towards what i like to call my-dream-wedding a.k.a. marvellous-ness. huhu~ so before i blab further, let me start with introducing my potential hubby-to-be...

lots of people would never believe dis but my story with him started with an arrangement. i was recently deeply hurt by my past relationship many2 moons ago and was starting to feel comfortable living single again at the age of 26. i thought, i am destined too be married really late and i have come 2 terms with dat fact, alongside with a lot of prayers so dat Allah will grant me a person to share my life with in the future. While continuing with my masters project as usual, 1 fine day... i was in the crop science department office doing some photostating when suddenly came dis really lovely, loving, adorable & cute lady (my mummy-in-law-2-be.. hehehe). we were discussing on my phd planning and suddenly she mentioned something about her son. i didn't know dat he has a son. huhu.. apparently she has 3 sons and 2 daughters. she mentioned to me about her 1st son dat is still not yet married and is already 28. she was wondering whether i would be interested in knowing her son and maybe to develop anything further n the future since both of us r single at dat time..

i was blushing n my face felt hot the 1st time she approached me on dat matter. i was thinking 'hmm.. how do i respond 2 dis?. should i? should i not?' i was analyzing my situation. but finally i decided.. owh.. it's okay. there is no pressure there. i will just go n meet him n see how it goes. let's just give both of us a chance. i was asking about his details from the mommy. his CV looks very promising. hehe~ but well.. i din't noe what kind of person he is... and so i said yes. i'll give it a try.. not knowing of what will happen with us in the near future..

he is:

a masters graduate checked

working checked

has a car checked

engineer checked

older than me checked

taller than me checked

speaks really good english checked

chubbier than me? of the same size approximately checked!!

loves 2 eat checked

loving family background checked!

so physically and background wise.. he has all that, but my main concern is his inner beauty. what is he like? will he be able 2 accept me as i am? is he patient enough? is he kind-hearted enough? will he break my heart like the others do? can this last till marriage? can we survive? all those questions ringing in my ears. will he? well.. lets just wait n see. it is a journey of discovery.. i want to see him as a book that wudn't be judged by its cover but 2 be flipped pages by pages~ ^_~

anyways, cut the long story short (heyy.. history r meant 2 b long n dragging.. hehehe). we started on Facebook (tq fb!) and we stalked each other. huhuhu.. (i noe u do dearie...!~) i was browsing thru all of his pics. n from there i got my impression. an unexplainable feeling. i was not sure of what is it? indescribable. before dat his mommy (the lovely future MIL) had mentioned about me to him, and he said he will give it a try too. waah! Allah opens up his heart too. so now, were facebook friends. i think it started exactly on February 19 2011... and the rest is history~ huhu..

oh BTW, coming back 2 my 1st objective, dat is introducing my habibi-2-be... his name is

~Nazrul Hilmi Bin Mohammad~

*next entry wud be The First Time i Met You... ngahaha~